Don't ever give up

Today I had the proof that, if you really really really want something, you should go for it because if you want it from the deep of your soul, you'll get it. I started working some weeks ago because I want to do a hair extension until Saturday. Today my mom said it wouldn't be possible because it was too expensive and she just couldn't afford. That minute I ran to my bathroom and started crying like a little kid. I was the disappointed so much because I used to believe that when you go truly for something you can have it. But hours later, I was talking to my dad and he said he would lend me money so I could do my hair extension. Of course, I'll need to pay him and I'll continue working to pay my mom. But if some weeks ago you asked me if I thought I was prepared to work and own my money I would say ' I'm to young for this '. Life showed me, I'm not. So don't give up on your dreams. Luck can help but you need to go for it. Luck is just half a way, you need to go for the other half.

Kisses,

Blake

Guys, I'm almost giving up

Nobody enter my blog, you people don't tell anyone! I thought that more teenagers like me where out there but I guess no. It's kin of strange I'm saying this now, because my next post will be about not giving up on your dreams. But nobody cares about this blog so I think I'm just gonna stop posting. If no one says anything until the end of the week I'll stop. I love writing, but I like it when somebody feels the same and wants me to continue. I think it's a good bye.

Kisses,

Blake

Need you now

I'm thinking about coming back to school. I mean, I'm tired of being outside the world. I miss John so much. I mean, just seeing him everyday and seeing he smile at me. I miss that. But at the same time I don't miss the mean girls. At all. When I remember how untrue is Catherine and how stupid and self-showing is Julia I just don't want it anymore. So, I'm consufed. Again. And I'm with a terible headache thinking about these things. I love him. I hate them. I don't know what to do. I'm trying to look superior and not begging for them to accept me but it isn't easy. I want to come back and have a social life again. It's just a price to high, I don't know if I can afford it. Getting together with those lesbians, and mean girls, and stupid guys, and the guy I love. I'll think about it... I just wanted him here with me. I wanted him to call me or email me. Whatever. Bye guys.

Kisses,

Blake

New home, new style, new life

The day is finally getting close. First of October (if everything goes alright) I'll be moving to my new apartment :):) I decided that with a new apartment I would change my style, my life, and the way I see the world. I have short hair so I'm gonna make it longer. I'm into a Jenny transition, haha. This will be a full and exciting weekend with lots of changes, I mean good changes. I am just so happy I'm moving in that I just can't wait anymore. I really really hope everything goes alright. Well I think at least my friendship with Melanie is going well. I was so worried it didn't go well and I think I even went kind of paranoid with this. But I'm well today and tomorrow I'll be meeting Melanie's second best friend: Carmen. I hope she likes me! Because I'm so nervous, haha. Need to go now.

Kisses,

Blake

What happened to USA??

Guys, I'm so sad about this. I mean, girls of USA were my biggest and strongest audience and now I checked it out and only 9 persons from here entered my blog. Please help me telling people about my blog. If you like it, help me. Because my blog is who I am. I'm writing from my heart and you all know it. If you're bored already send me suggestions of what to talk about ok? USA you're my country please help me. Facebook: Blake Cornelia Hampton / Twitter: @blakechampton / Formspring: blakeitsmylife and Hotmail: blake-hampton@hotmail.com Please guys don't give up on me ok? Thanks.

Kisses,

Blake

Life like in films

God, how I wished life was like in films. It would be so much easier. Knowing that everything would be ok in the end would help so much! I'm so divided because I'm not sure anymore if life can be like in films or not. The thing is my own brain has so many different opinions that hearing only myself is already really confusing. I want to be the protagonist of my life but I don't really know if I can. People say that just being myself will make everything work out right. But what can I do when I don't even know who I really am or want. I want to change everything but I don't know how exactly. I'm discovering myself but it isn't easy at all. I'm moving to my new apartment next week and I'm full of hope that a new apartment will bring me new (good) things. I feel as I didn't have a social life but I guess it's because of homeschooling. It's kind of a choice I made. I mean, I don't know I really really really confused! I'll try getting some sleep and tomorrow I'll write more when I'm not so confused anymore.

Kisses,

Blake

Your love is my drug

I'm totally and completly in love with my classmate John. I don't know how or why but destiny brought us together yesterday at BRAZIL! God, love is definiltly complicated. I met him eight months ago. I tried to forget him and tried to like someone else, but the thing is, when you fall in love is for good. No returns. I'm thinking of already telling him that I love him. He's like the most popular guy in school  and maybe people will think I'm so nonsense of telling him: I LOVE YOU. Unfortunatly, it's the truth! But you know what? I don't matter what those bitches will all say and all the gossip that maybe even he will tell. I'm gonna spill it out once and for all and damn it all the rest. I didn't actually have a chance. He's charming, nice, a gentelman. When he looked he in my eyes I just couldn't take it. Well, now I'm really going. Love is complicated. Maybe will won't ever be together. Maybe all the looks and the times he pretended not to miss me was just an ilusion. Maybe, I'm really crazy! Kkk. Gotta go.

Kisses,

Blake