What can you do when...

You feel you have already done everything possible? When you try so hard but it's not enough? When you feel like disappearing but there's no escape? Well, when that happens, you create a blog and hope that more than one person sees it. Because you are writing with your heart. You're opening yourself to people. Like I'm opening myself to you. Life in New York isn't so perfect as it seems. Specially in Mahantans elite, where people think that money and power are better than personality and honesty. Well I'm part of this elite. But I don't think like them. Before, I wanted to be queen, but now I realize that every queen falls from her thrown. You can make people love you, but you can make them fear you. Because one day, they will realise that they don't need you and then, they wont fear you anymore. I've choosen not to be queen. Just to live my life and make people love me for who I am. Monarchy isn't easy. Be a queen isn't also. But be nice and convice people that monarchy only works in films, isn't so hard. Or at least I hope so. Life can be as in films, but you need to be the protagonist of your own story. And that is what I'm trying to do.

Kisses,

Blake

I think I've finally found a TRUE friend

OMG, I think, maybe, just maybe, I have finally found a true friend that one day can maybe become my BFF. God, my dream was to have a friend that would represent to me what Serena represents to Blair and what Blair represents to Serena. And I think I've found this person. Somebody that already passed through my life when I was completely blind and I couldn't notice her like I notice now. Melanie, thank you. Thank you for being with me when I most needed, thank you for being my friend and love me for who I am =) Life made us get together again and I hope once and for all. You are the friend I've always dreamed of. You make me feel special and nice, and kind, and graceful. Thank you. And I want you to know that I will always be here when you need help. Even if my world is falling apart, I'll help to get your world back together. Always.

Kisses,

Blake

I Fell In Love With... MY COUSIN!

Ok, he is so amazing. He's beautiful, inteligent, nice.. I mean, everything he needs to make me fall in love with him! But he is my COUSIN. How can I be in love with someone of my own family?! Ok, maybe I'm not in love with him. OMG, what am I saying? I'm completly in love with him. His name is Mathew. Wonderful name right? Kkk. Please somebody help me, because I am really, really confused. Why is this happening to me? I mean, now I have two impossible loves. My cousin Mathew, adorable, and my classmate John, adorable also! But the worse is that I think I don't have any chances with any of them. Maybe I meant to be alone. Ok, I'm freaking out. But what can I do? It's my life. I need to handle it.

Kisses,

Blake

Who Am I

Hi everyone, I'm Blake Cornelia Hampton, I'm 12 years old but it seems like I am 14 or even 15. People say I'm beautiful, but I desagree, people say I'm inteligent, but I don't think so. Well sometimes I think I'm perfect but others I hate myself. I thought that writing what I feel here I could find help and even help girls that feel the same way I do. Oh, yeah. I life in New York City. Manhattan. I mean, Manhattan's elite. Cruel girls, beautiful guys that don't even look at you, and teachers that think their the kings of the world. Or at least of NYC. Feel yourselves free to ask anything, and I promise I'll do my best to answer. (:

Kisses,

Blake