Demi and I

Well seems that Demi Lovato and I have more things in common that I thought so. Just like she did, in seventh grade I'm begging my mom to have teachers at home and go away from school for a while, and get away from bullying. Her dream was to become a singer and actress because it's what she loves. And I feel the same way. She had her chance and became a star. I want mine. I want to show the world what I can do. And believe or not I'm good at it. All the circunstances saw no, but I saw yes. And the harder it can be, I won't give up. I feel I'm ready. Give me the chance and I'll show it. We need to think this way in life. Go after your dreams, no matters how impossible it seems to be. Nothing in life is impossible. And never say that you'll never be able to do something.

Kisses,

Blake

Good Girls Gone Bad

Do you know the feeling of wanting to do something out of the rules? Just for fun. A night out just to have fun and loose control of everything. I've always been a perfect daughter, perfect student, perfect friend, perfect everything actually (I mean in behavior). But I'm tired of being mommy's little girl. I'm not saying I'm gonna become a bitch or something like that, kkk. But I want to be more independent and show the world who I really am! So world, get prepared for me, because I'm coming in.

Kisses,

Blake

Don't be afraid to make your own mistakes

I wanna make my OWN mistakes. I wanna do my own things and go after dreams. If I fall, it's ok, but I know I'll be falling my own way. Stop hearing everyone. People won't make your mistakes for you, and they won't feel the pain when you fall down. But when it happens, you need to continue. Get up and face life with courage. Believe me, I know it isn't easy but it's life. And the thing I love the most is being alive. I want to be an actress, and singer. Two kind of impossible jobs. People keep saying: " You should be a doctor" or " You should be a journalist, because the acting world is too difficult!". And who cares if it's difficult? It's MY LIFE, MY MISTAKES, MY DREAMS. I'm gonna go after them, because what is life made of without dreams? I have mine. You have yours. The guy next door has his. In life we need to fight for things. Live your own life for yourself because we only have one chance. Don't live other peoples' lives if you don't want to. I've always had a feeling that my mom kind of corrected all the mistakes my grandma made, and now she doesn't really know how to deal with her own mistakes. Go for YOUR dreams and forget all the rest. Not literaly! Kkk. But do what you want, takes what it takes, because people won't do it for you.

Kisses,

Blake

It's a ladies' weekend...

Me and my mom, my mom and I. A perfect weekend. Just the two of us in a five star hotel, I mean could it be better? I've always been my mom's best friend and vice versa, but we didn't have much time to be together. But this will be a ladies' weekend. We'll go to the Spa, and to the best shopping malls, order room service for dinner, eat a delicious brunch at Castro's, I mean what else do need for the weekend? Well, I don't know if I'll can write tomorrow, but sunday, I promise I'll make and effort. Happy weekend everyone!

Kisses,

Blake

Time to go to sleep...

Well, I can say I'm freaking out. I can't explain really what I feel but it isn't good. Definitly not. I feel nervous, and sad and hopeless. I wanna sleep but at the same time I don't. My mom bought a yoga CD to try to make me sleep! But I think the only person that will really sleep here is her. I feel like if my life is nothing compared to millions of people that exist out there. I try not to think on what I'll be doing next, or how will it be home-schooling, but I can't help it. My brain is faster. What will I do to my life? I wanted to do something really different, like go to a designing class in Paris, or to a cooking class at Rome. I don't know, something different that makes me feel special. I want to disappear for a while and not be wondering if people notice I disappeared or not. Be myself, no matter what it takes. Well, now I'll listen to my yoga CD and try to sleep. Kkk. Shit. I hate not sleeping normally. But it's ok. I'll handle it, like I always do.

Kisses,

Blake

Is everything possible?

Yes. No. Maybe? Yeah, maybe. My dream is to be famous as a singer and actress, and that, one day, Demi Lovato sees this. Kkk. Well, it's possible. Difficult and unprobable but possible. In life, we need to believe we can, because if don't believe in ourselves, who will? The answer is nobody. You need to believe in yourself and show people you deserve it. You're already a winner. You won the hardest competition. Of being alive. That's really something. In that moment you didn't think that you would lose, or looked behind, or was afraid. Because you're life depended on that competition. You WANTED to be alive. So when you get all sad and hopeless, remember that. You are a winner, you are a human being because you fought for it. Fight and go for what you want. Life can knock us down, but we can choose to get back up. And I'll always choose to get back up.

Kisses,

Blake

Home-schooling

Life can be good. When something is hurting you, take it away from you. That is exactly what I am doing, taking school away from me. I mean, me away from school. And it is not because I am weak or afraid, its because I do not want to hurt myself anymore. My social life is getting better each day and I am really happier now. So I tell you, do not do what you dont want to.

Kisses,

Blake